I know that I'm over reacting about all of this but still. I feel like writing about it. I'm so glad that none of you guys really know me in real life, except Min and Kevin. But I trust yall enough anyway.

So what happen was that I was all depressed like I get. It's just the way I am. I get like that just randomly, you know? So I was talking to my boyfriend and he said something that I thought that I might correct. So I corrected him right? And I felt that he was going to cry. Mann. I felt so bad. I think he took it the wrong way. So In the background, People are yelling and stuff. But then I hear someone saying, "Are you alright?" Owh Mann. I felt even worse.

So, I was talking to my bestest friend in the whole wide world about it. And how yet again I was depressed. And she got mad at me and told me to text her when I was done. But the thing is that I was done already. And I wasn't depressed because of the guy.

So I've been trying to talk to her. but she just refuses to text me back. I know that she's really mad at me. And I know that it's my being depressed. Mann. I hate myself so much right now. I havn't done anything at all all day. All I've done was take a shower and walk sugar. I really don't want to lose her. She means way too much to me. I don't know what I would do without her. I'm crying as i type. Just thinking about the possibility of losing her.

Mann.